Young and Immortal

It was August of 1982, and a bunch of us were hiking in the Golan Heights in the heat of summer. It was a long day with many adventures, this was the last.

The Golan is covered in minefields left by the Syrians before the Israelis captured it in the Six Day War in 1967. We had been warned, under no circumstances to leave the track marked with barbed wire. Every year a couple of people lost their lives to the mines.

We had just turned the last leg of the return trip down the Golan, when suddenly we hear loud wuh-wuh-whoom sounds above us. I knew immediately what it was, from a poem I studied in seventh grade. “Bullets smacking the belly out of the air.” We were being fired on. Ted Hughes and Mr. Davis saved my life.

Did I mention there was a war on?

I paused to try to decipher what was happening, jerked into action as one of the girls (when I look back, we were all children at nineteen and twenty) shouted at me “are you OK?” We sheltered behind rocks, fearful to stay where we were, fearful to move. We were trapped.

There were two different sounds of gunfire. One a faint crackle as if of fireworks. Very difficult to tell what direction it came from. The other a full throated clacking sound. They seemed to alternate.

Eventually I realized that the sounds were not of combat, but of target practice. Long bursts of fire, punctuated by longer bursts of silence. Only two guns. My fear that the war had come to us, that we were caught in a crossfire between the IDF and their enemies, whether Syrian or PLO, was unjustified.

My fear was now that we would lose our lives to an accident of war. A foot note, less than a foot note, a never to be remembered tragedy of errors.

I had seen as I paused that the firing was from an old Syrian emplacement that we had passed through hours before, on our way up. The trail led steeply down, until it was below it. I waited my moment, and when the riflemen paused to smoke a cigarette, charged down the hill screaming for them to hold their fire. Twenty seconds of running that encompassed my life.

After I reached the emplacement, the Israelis (kids our age waiting their turn at the War in Lebanon) sheepishly asked if we would like to take some shots with their M-16 and AK-47. We all declined. Any time before or after I would have jumped at the chance, but this was not that day. As it turned out, I was never to fire an assault rifle. My plans to emigrate permanently to Israel and serve my time in the IDF were up-ended when I fell in love with an American, and decamped to New York.

In later years I would dream of that time. The dream was always the same: that I had made a mistake in believing that there was no battle going on, and as the bullets hit me I knew I had killed not only myself but also my companions by revealing their position. My wife would wake me from these dreams, but I could not tell her their content until many years after they passed.

And after that, it fueled my passion against the NRA, when they tried to hold a fundraiser in my neighborhood in Brooklyn: Park Slope, the bastion of liberalism.

You Can Beat the NRA

They punch way above their weight. More than their direct contributions to politicians, they have a pool of committed single issue voters, and they are experts at turning them out. But the Marjory Stoneman Douglas kids are showing us the way.

In February Andy, a friend from the Rise and Resist activist group, sent around a flier that they had somehow found. The Brooklyn Friends of the NRA are having a fundraiser for the NRA. My email exploded. Everyone wanted to get them to cancel.

I buy tickets.

The effort to cancel was largely focused in Brooklyn, centered on the folks at Get Organized Brooklyn, the Coney Island Anti-Violence Collaborative, and Marjory Stoneham Douglas alumni. The restaurant for this shindig is Gargiulo’s, a Brooklyn institution – my son had his eight grade prom there, very swanky.

I stay out of the fight, sitting on my four tickets.

Last year when Trump was visiting New York for the first time as president and we were planning a response, a co-organizer Betsy proposed getting tickets to that event. Apparently this was a classic ACT-UP tactic, take the fight to the enemy’s safe space. Dress up in suits, first person stands up and starts a speech. When they get shuffled away by security, the next person stands up and picks up at the same spot.

Tickets to the Australian American Association dinner on the Intrepid were already sold out when we called. We did a great protest anyway in front of the Intrepid, in coalition with the Working Families Party and many others. And I filed away getting tickets.

Then we got word of a visit by Frank Gaffney to the Women’s National Republican Club. Anne took the lead organizing a group of infiltrators. They held up signs in turns in silent protest and refused to leave until NYPD was called in. They spoke truth to power.

EPA Administrator Scott Pruitt cancelled his speech at the Harvard Club when he heard we were there.

I started a new folder in Gmail to keep track of these “welcome” events. Intelligence is key, SIGINT research on the internet, HUMINT. We have the beginnings of a John le Carré novel.

And it’s the president again. Breakfast at Cipriani’s, a fundraiser. Got signs printed, organized with Jaime and the other members of the Rise and Resist actions committee.

And I wrote my first bot. After taking legal advice, I entered a lottery to get free expenses paid tickets to see Trump stump for cash. 50,000 times. My guess is that I failed a background check, no tix. We had a great protest anyway, joined by SEIU and the New York Nurses Association. Plenty of coverage.

So back to my NRA tickets. I got them in February. The event was not until April 12th. I had to give my real name for the credit card, I worry that they will discover me and cancel my tickets.

It turns out that our intelligence was better than their counterintelligence. The NRA emailed me that they have rescheduled for the Grand Prospect Hall, in blue-state/blue-borough/blue-neighborhood Park Slope, my home for 30 years. My ex went ballistic over dinner, how can they?

The Park Slope crowd went crazy when I let them know. Phone calls to the Grand Prospect, site of so many of our celebrations. Social media. The local PTA went on record that they will cancel the prom. City councilor Brad Lander went on cable news to condemn it. NY1, New York Post and New York Daily News cover it.

Within 21 hours of my posting, Grand Prospect Hall cancelled. The waiting game begins.

The NRA emailed ticket holders that the event is still on, but due to “press interest” they will not let us know the location until the day before. We continued to organize. Facebook event to recruit protesters. Fielding the press. Legal coverage in case we are arrested (unlikely, but the experienced among us advise it is possible). Claire of the Marjory Stoneman Douglas New York alumni and I talked, and it turns out we used to live in the same building. Tony of Gays Against Guns wrote the press release. The magnificent Elissa on graphics, Michael of MGX Copy on printing. Sandi on video for NowThis.

Jamie and I called every likely venue, no one ‘fesses up. Virginia and I prepare cover stories.

Eventually I broke down and called the local organizer the day before. He said the national organization will make an announcement by 5pm, sit tight.

And at 5:30, out came the NRA email. They have cancelled!

Shortly after I learned that they have also cancelled the event in Connecticut, near Sandy Hook.

So lessons learned. Local direct action works. It’s work, but it’s worth it. Act in coalition. Consensus is key.

We will likely never know exactly why the NRA folded. Maybe they saw the buzz on social media and realized that they faced a real drubbing in the press. Maybe if we had relied on word of mouth I would have had my 15 minutes of fame on NowThis.

But this was a solid win. The NRA can be beat.


Firsts in 2017

Since Trump was elected, I have dedicated my free time to opposing his regime. I have made new friends, expanded my horizons, learned to announce my preferred pronouns. After a year of struggle, I paused with the New Year to reflect on all that had passed.

2017 was a big year of firsts for me.

First time saw a total eclipse.

First time joining an activist group.

First time organizing a demonstration.

First time at the front of Gay Pride march

First time projecting messages onto the UN building.

First time acting (voice over in video).

First time doing media relations.

First time casting a singer.

First time interviewed by TV.

First time on BBC (web site).

First time in the Guardian.

First time on CBS radio.

First time in documentary.

First time in podcast.

First time as de facto art director.

First time on executive committee of political club.

First time marshaling a protest.

First time wearing Naked Trump suit in Village Halloween Parade.

First time crashing a board meeting.

First time escorted out of a building by security.

First time giving class on electronic security for activists.

First time scuba diving with my son.

First time divorced.

For my resolution for 2018, keep turning into the wind and facing the storm.

After the Election

Lying on my sofa at 9:30 pm on November 8th, I was watching election returns come in with a heavy heart. My son Ben came downstairs and saw numbers flash on the screen, and asked what does it mean? I responded, it means Hillary has lost. My ex turned as if to hush me, but forbore when she saw his face. It took her hours to come to the same conclusion that I had, the math of the electoral college had once again thwarted the will of the majority.

This is my story.

The roots of this catastrophe have been analyzed in such great width and depth, rehashing them now seems redundant. In any large endeavor many forces are at play, many decisions are made, each contributing in one direction or another to the ledger of success. Some seem decisive, others are footnotes. But in the Clinton campaign, it seems that so many factors conspired, there is no one theme.

In September I had volunteered on day trips out of New York to go to Pennsylvania to knock on doors for Hillary. I even took Ben at the age of 15 on one of them. The targeting seemed nonsensical compared with the 2008 Obama campaign, for which I had organized trips by three hundred volunteers in carpools. In 2008 I had a good feeling that the local Pennsylvania Democratic party knew their stuff. We were making contact with people and inspiring them to vote. We were sent armed with voter registration rolls, into areas where votes could be turned. The contrast with 2016 was stark – middle class New Yorkers beaming down into impoverished communities, minds already made up, and made up on racial lines. What if the Clinton campaign had invested more and directed energies better in Pennsylvania? Just one of many marks in the ledger of defeat.

But the emails.

But stronger than any confluence of campaign checks was the mood of middle America. How could I have missed this? I had all the information in front of me.

That summer I had gone on a road trip from New York to Graceland, with many stops along the way. Of course the journey was as much a part of the trip as the destination – I could have flown to Memphis far faster and at less cost, but I would have missed meeting a teenage girl waitressing in a barbecue shack by the road side while lost outside Shiloh. I was the only customer, while grandma sat next to me bouncing her two year old grand-daughter, who had never seen a stranger before but was very happy to sit in my lap. Once grandma was gone the teenager came over to talk. She is going to the University of Memphis in the fall, and dreams of becoming an English teacher in a foreign land – she desperately wants to escape this “hellhole of a county”. We talk about FAFSAs and saving money with used and rented textbooks, I hope she can escape the bleak future she fears.

There were rumors of trouble from Black Lives Matter in Memphis.

Earlier on the trip I had stopped at the Grand Ole Opry for a show. Feelings were high with the riots in Ferguson in the news. Someone shot some cops in Dallas. A beautiful young singer made an oblique reference to the strife, introducing her rendition of Over the Rainbow. She was heckled from the audience, “That had better be about the Texas!”.

America is sorely divided. Its original sin still shows its scars, while the heartland of America stares at the coast uncomprehending that country music could not be popular in Brooklyn.

Election night despair turns rapidly to an urgent anger. But then to an urgent feeling that we must try to bridge the gap between the two Americas that I saw on my voyage of exploration. I join the Get Organized Brooklyn grass roots organization that city councilor Brad Lander establishes in the wake of the election, trying to set up a twinning arrangement with a red state community to start the healing process. It is not to be, I eventually abandon the effort. The time is not right, I do not have what it takes to be the bridge.

The action is all on Facebook. I join a number of groups, feverishly scanning for news and actions to be a part of. One group, recommended by a friend from the 2008 Obama campaign, posts that Trump is due in town and they will have a last minute protest at Trump Tower. Intrigued I ask if they are sure Trump will be in town, I have not seen anything about it. Sheepishly they admit that the rumor was false, it turns out that Palm Beach local papers are reporting that he will be in Mar-A-Lago that weekend, but their protest will go ahead without him.

But there is a nugget of gold in this ore. The report in the Palm Beach Sun Sentinel references a Federal Aviation Administration site as its source of information about Trump’s travel plans. Apparently every time the President travels, air space is blocked off days in advance, and this information is published openly for pilots to use for their flight plans. If I scan these reports daily, I can get 24 to 48 hours warning of an actual Trump visit to New York!

Rise and Resist

Armed with this knowledge, I make my way to the next in person meeting of this Rise and Resist group. In my mind is a vision of being welcomed as a hero for this intelligence, and having experienced activists take the information and use it. But this is not to be – I am greeted warmly and made to feel welcome, but the informal leadership of the group is tied up in a “vague action”, a secret civil disobedience action. They want me to stand up in front of the floor and propose this as a group action, and recruit a group to pursue it.

And here starts my real journey. I throw caution to the wind, and stand up in front of a church full of strangers, proposing who knows what; to happen who knows when; if, as, and when you know who turns up, if ever. I am challenged: how do I know when he will come (but I feel I cannot let this be common knowledge for fear that the source is cut off); why is this not going through the action committee – they (Jaime identifies as a “they”, rejecting binary pronouns) respond that they are too busy with the vague action; how do I know that Trump will ever come?

The action is voted on and approved by the floor. We form a committee, and start meeting weekly at a spectacular apartment on Central Park West. We are Operation Welcome Wagon. We plan as best we can, getting art work for signs, writing a press release, a whole array of tasks; in a role of leadership that I am thrust into, for a project that I have no qualification or experience to draw on. But others do.

Then, in an instant, the quantum mechanical probability function collapses as the live cat is observed. Speculation and hypotheticals are crystallized into action. The White House announces that Trump will visit the Intrepid on Thursday. We have days, not hours, and enough time to involve a coalition of like minded organizations. I attend planning meetings with these organizations, and feverishly arrange sign printing (with no corporate communications department, I have to search for a print shop on the internet), press release, publicity, and so much more. I take time off work to handle all the media calls, I am all of a sudden press relations.

The day arrives. Mad scurrying as Trump’s plans mutate by the minute. The New York Times publishes a whole itinerary in which he will supposedly stop at the Peninsula Hotel on the way the Intrepid (not true). I have to persuade the more excitable members of our group to hold to the plan and make a stand at the ground that Jaime has chosen for us at 44th Street just below the Intrepid. I turn up at 2:15, to be greeted by a solo NYPD captain who is obviously waiting for me. All he wants to know is how many people are coming, and how late will we be staying. I give him the bad news that I don’t know how many people are coming, but I think we will be there until the president leaves around 10pm, and we are organized with marshals. We are not friends, not opponents, but regard each other with mutual respect.

Rise and Resist
I spend the rest of the day mostly in a daze, hanging out with Charlotte (the grad student who’s interested in non-violent direct action), handing out signs to the over a thousand people who join Rise and Resist’s portion of the demonstration. Being interviewed by a swarm of press, I give out sound bites that my friends at work never seem to tire of telling me about.

Weeks later, in the middle of a Times article about Trump avoiding London due to possible protests, is a mention that Trump is avoiding New York City now. Success.

Rise and Resist

I am now a full fledged activist. So many actions, so many selfies of me at the action of the week that I ration myself to. And so much fun. For Trump’s birthday we arrange an un-birthday party in front of Trump Tower. Birthday cake (“May all your wishes not come true”), piñata, one way tickets to Moscow for the whole family. The tickets were a lot of fun, my son Jeremy had the idea to make them supersize like a Lotto check. Artwork by Jake.

Alice Teeple

After we were done showing them to the cameras I led a troop of us into Trump Tower to deliver them. On being told that no signs were allowed, I said “it’s not signs, it’s delivery!”. Did not realize until I saw the photos afterwards that right behind the security guard kicking me out was a Secret Service officer.

Rise and Resist

Then there was RUSA LGBT at Brighton Beach. They are an LGBT group in the notoriously homophobic Russian community, looking to have a gay pride march on the boardwalk to fight prejudice in their community. Shades of Stonewall, another time, another place. When a call goes out for marshals to help separate the marchers from any hostilities I tag along. Fortunately the rain and about thirty cops keep the incidents down to two, both on my side. A restaurateur who tries to attack the crowd is restrained by his own staff before I or the cops get to him. One woman pursues us screaming “why don’t you want to f— me?”, as the voice of reason I restrain myself from giving the obvious answer: “because you are ugly!”

One morning a Pakistani colleague at work rushes up to me, he has been searching all over for me. He whips out a cell phone to show me my photo on BBC Urdu. It’s really more a photo of the very clever sign Jake at Rise and Resist made: “100 Days of Pampering Billionaires”, with Stephen Mnuchin in a diaper. So now my face is known in shady bazaars in Pakistani border areas.

Rise and Resist

I almost wasn’t going to go to Gay Pride. One of our members, Ken, had arranged for the resistance to be at the front of what used to be a protest parade before Wells Fargo started sending a stage coach.
But a bunch of kids called Hoods4Justice decided to protest the parade, and we had decided to respect their action and take a knee if they blocked the parade. So we needed marshals.

Marching at the front of Gay Pride was a peak experience. With fresh spectators, the enthusiasm and noise level was incredible. And as it turned out, the kids hid until the gay cops came out, and protested them behind us. But I wouldn’t have missed it for the world.

I stringently avoid anything that might lead to my arrest. Consequences to me at work would be likely to be disproportionate, compared to a freelance artist or retired person. But there was the 4th of July Macy’s fireworks. We got a crew with an enormous projector, and impersonated a film crew to get past the police barricades. We projected “Resist Hate”, “Resist Lies”, “Resist Trump” on the side of the UN building visible all the way down the FDR. When they saw “Resist Trump” the cops blocked the projector, but we got it on Facebook.

Jo Macellaro

Then there was littering at Trump Tower. Not me, but I was Facebooking only to see Jaime being arrested at Trump Tower. Apparently they had written the first amendment on a bunch of pieces of rainbow colored paper, and tossed them off a balcony in front of a cop. He arrested them on the spot, and then a gaggle of NYPD, Secret Service, and Trump goons took half an hour to decide what they had arrested them for, since they were not trespassing in this privately owned public space. Eventually they took them to be booked. They are fighting the ticket.

But I was not finished with Pride. At one of our weekly meetings a speaker got up to say that the Hoods4Justice kids were facing enhanced charges and faced jail time. Could we show solidarity, and petition the Heritage of Pride executive to show some leniency. My friend Jay stands up to say that the Heritage of Pride board committee was meeting next door at that very moment, who would like to follow him to pay them a visit?

Crash a board meeting? Don’t even think leaving me out. Give me a good excuse and a board meeting, I don’t care what, I am definitely there. So we crash the meeting. And after a polite discussion we are asked to leave, and hang out in the corridor. And eventually get kicked out by security. All we missed in our meeting was the extended report of the finance committee, important stuff that I was delighted to miss.

This year my road trip with Ben was to see the total eclipse outside Charleston. During the two minutes and 34 seconds of totality, I reflect on my adventures since my trip last year. It has been a long journey, and it’s not yet over, but I have come a long way.

New Toys

I love my gadgets. So far:

  • Idol 3New cell phone with better reception for travelling in the boonies and a larger screen for navigation (and more RAM so I can deposit checks on my cell, and Marshmallow Android version)

  • Cell HolderCell phone holder for the car (how has Debbie been doing Waze without this?)

  • Bluetooth Car AdapterBluetooth adapter so cell phone can feed into the car stereo for tunes, and for hands free calling (our car is too old to come with this as standard)

What else do I need? Camouflage?Make America Great


Music for the Road

America by Paul Simon for the New Jersey Turnpike
America cover by Yes
War by Edwin Starr for Gettysburg
Jolene by Dolly Parton for Nashville
Graceland by Paul Simon
Heartbreak Hotel Elvis Presley
We Shall Overcome by Pete Seeger for Selma and Montgomery, plus ten more from NEWSONE
Southern Man by Neil Young
Sweet Home Alabama by Lynyrd Skynyrd
Night They Drove Old Dixie Down by the Band for Richmond, covered by Joan Baez

Any nominations please in comments section

Day 0 – Drop Off at Camp

269 miles. Benjy’s summer sleep away camp bookends our vacations. Summer doesn’t really start until we do the three hour drive up to Frost Valley Y.

On the way up we have four cell phones for three people, but manage to debate how to use them. I want to pipe Google Play through the now Bluetooth enabled car stereo, but this turns into a catastrophe with voice recognition. Eventually we settle down on 10,000 Maniacs from my off-line collection.

On the way back we stop at Quickway Twin Cones, I have an absolutely enormous (medium) rum’n’raisin and maple walnut. Yum! Photos would be nice, but I never seem to think to memorialize my experiences. Will try to do better on the way to Graceland!

Day 1 – Mon 7/11 – Battle of Gettysburg

Day 1 – Mon 7/11

401.2 miles to Harrisonburg via Gettysburg, the high water mark of the Confederacy. General Robert E. Lee’s defeat by General George Meade. 51,000 dead in a convincing demonstration of the 3:1 advantage of defense in modern warfare, a lesson lost on the generals of the First World War.

I was surprised at how little relief there was in the battleground. I had an image of steep slopes, but even the site of Pickett’s Charge was a gently sloping rise. Enough I suppose for the Union to get off a few more fusillades.

I climbed it!
I climbed the tower at Culp’s Hill for a complete view of the battlefield!
Confederate cannon fodder marched unprotected across open ground into the Union artillery
Confederate cannon fodder marched unprotected across open ground into the Union artillery

After the excellent visitor center and self guided auto tour off into a westering sky, through twisty country roads to the sound of the Memphis blues. I love Spotify.

Day 2 – Tues 7/12 – On the Interstate from Virginia to Tenessee

550.2 miles in 9.5 hours of pure driving to Nashville. Nothing but driving. I guess truckers do it all the time, but this is the furhest I remember driving in one go, and certainly by myself.

Nashville country music all the way, now that I have figured out working Spotify and Google Maps together. Haven’t done streaming music up till now because I commute by subway, and there is no reception. Now I have a reason to try it. Also a reason to get an updated Android phone, to get better reception on I-81.

Kind of a shame that Spotify does not understand Google voice commands, it would be really cool if I could just say my music requests and have Spotify serve them up. Maybe in a future version of Android?

Econolodge is kind of a dump. Got buttonholed by a couple of seventeen year olds with some sad tale of woe that they were crossing the country and OOPS I gave them the New Yorker grunt and break eye contact response. Now I regret it, I should probably have told them to call their parents.

Ate at Monell’s Dining and Catering, a fun Southern menu place where you sit together with other guests and pass the all you can eat food around. Met some fun young Ernst and Young types about Jeremy’s age, we reminisced about Pokemon cards.

Monell'sAll You Can Eat